Forever Crushed: The Forever Series by Amber Paige

Author:Amber Paige [Paige, Amber]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Little Witch Publishing LLC
Published: 2023-10-16T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Ash

Undiluted jealousy boils in my veins. She’s in his arms. Fucking Zack Willows. They’ve known each other their entire lives. I get that. What I care about are his arms around her and the smile that floats across his face whenever she’s near. It doesn’t seem like one a brother would give.

I hate that these thoughts are running through my head. I don’t want them to. I didn’t even expect to see them on campus today. Gwen and I made plans to hang out at her place again, but that was for later tonight. When I saw her walking toward the pavilion, I started for her right away. Until I saw she was walking toward Zack. I halted and hid in the shadows like a creep, needing to see what transpired between them.

Is this how fucked up I am? Still? Did my parents and Alex really leave this much of a lasting impression on me? I want to trust Gwen. I’ve told myself over and over that I could. Deep down, though, in the pit of my chest, I feel it brewing. I’m waiting for her to misstep. I don’t want her to, but I’m waiting for something to happen.

Before Gwen, I was an emotional wreck, faking how I felt on the outside. I had an image to uphold. I’m Ash Waylen, all around nice, decent guy. On the inside, though, I’m Ash Waylen, a distrustful and heartbroken jackass.

I wasn’t always this way. In high school, I was carefree. I strolled the halls knowing who I was. My confidence was evident in every room I walked in. I knew all eyes were on me. I knew every girl craved my attention. I didn’t take advantage of it though. I only dated a handful of girls in my life and genuinely cared for each one.

None of them live up to Gwen Roman.

After Gwen, I’m a new person. I stand a little taller. My heart doesn’t ache because of Alex every damn second. When I look at her, the entire world changes into something lighter and more lasting. So why are these feelings appearing? I don’t want to be jealous. I don’t like this feeling sitting in my chest. She can hug a friend. Stop it, dammit.

I don’t breathe until they part. I don’t notice I balled my hands into fists until they step away from one another. The light doesn’t return until I see her face. I’ll be with her later. Maybe then I’ll feel a bit more secure.

Right now, I have other things to tend to. I’ve been slacking on my coding project, and I need to get some of it done before I get distracted again. Not that Gwen is a bad distraction. If it were up to me, I’d let her distract me all day long. She wouldn’t want me to fall behind in my classes, though, just like I don’t want her to either.

The first day of October is tomorrow, and the trees have started to change color, making Castle Brook University look even more magical.

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